Something that I have been thinking about lately has been really bothering me because I want it so bad. About 2 years ago I had a procedure done to remove pre-cancer from my cervix. Me being the nervous person that I am, did research beforehand and did not like what I was seeing in regards to being able to carry a child successfully after surgery. Now that two years have passed, I feel myself getting older and my wants and needs changing. I so badly want to be a mother, and I want to know now rather than later if I can even carry a child. I cannot imagine what it would be like to not carry a child inside of you at least once.
I need to find out now, because I don't want to be heartbroken in a few years when I actually start trying. Well, I guess you could say we have been going with the attitude "whatever happens, happens" for the past 2 years because I am not on birth control, but still have not been able to conceive. I feel alot better now that I have it written down somewhere and outside of my head. If I were to mention this to my mother she would tell me something like I should be concentrating on finishing school. But, I cannot help it if this bothers me so much.
These past few weeks have been really great. I haven't been doing so good money wise, but it has helped us enjoy the simple things in life, like good times with friends and family. Plus, we have been doting on our pets a little too much! Last night, my in-laws had a Halloween party. My boyfriend wanted to show his family his skills with cooking, so he made us all a pumpkin bisque. It was sooo good and I'm really glad his family loved it because it made him feel proud. I also had a good time hanging out with his younger sister, because we get along really well. She was even old enough to have a drink with me this year! I cannot wait for Thanksgiving and Christmas!
I forgot to add, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!
ReplyDeleteHi Denae-
ReplyDeleteI think almost every woman can sympathize with your concerns. I am sorry to hear that you had pre-cancerous cells, but I do not think that your chances for conceiving are impossible. If you are worried about it enough to think about it constantly, maybe you should go back to the doctor! There is an abundant amount of information on the internet, but not all is accurate. Your situation may be different from what you have read. I think sometimes we worry ourselves too much from what we find on the internet. Don't panic! Have faith that one day you will have a family, even if it doesn't happen the way you imagine. I don't know if you have considered adoption, but that is always a choice. You have so many options now days, don't fret. Hope you had a happy halloween and good luck in the baby making! ;)